I need a bloggy break.
I began this blog as a fun outlet, but I find myself editing and censoring myself... not that I have a lot of that to do, but I feel like I can't be my true self.
I've been thinking of stopping this blog. It's not very fun for me anymore, and I think it's because I feel uncomfortable sharing myself with an online community that has shown itself as so unkind to so many other people. Nothing really negative has happened to me, but it has made me put up a guard and I don't like it. I feel as though I'm trying to be somebody I'm not, just so other people won't judge me. Though I've made several friends through this blog, it's been a struggle to put myself out there. There are still people who I'd rather not know about this blog or read it, either. I know that sounds weird. It is. I can't help it. I'm sick of being judged for who I am.
I don't like feeling like I have to hide what I think. I'll keep thinking about it, but for now, I need a break.
Maybe I'll come back, braver than ever, and I'll let everyone I know read my blog. Maybe I'll delete it all. I don't know. Thanks for being my friend.